Dear Mom, Dear John.

to clarify,
my mom kicked me out for being gay
our conversations are similar
my life parallels yours. thank you for documenting it. it helps to know i'm not alone.

thefloorislava

Reading some of the things your mom has said to you gave me shivers. It’s eerie how similar our mothers are.

My Mom has radically changed her approach. Now she sends me sermons that she has written for me. She doesn’t talk about me being gay anymore. It isn’t good, but it’s kind of better.

I miss the way things used to be.

More Suspense Than TS3

I was in the theater watching Toy Story 3 when I got this text from Mom:

Hey honey are you working? Can you call me when you have a minute?

This always makes me nervous. I asked what was wrong and she said:

Probably nothing. Just need to tell you about some test results. Very strong possibility that it’s nothing. I told Bart and wanted you to know.

Today’s Text

Dear John,

I love you. :)

-Mom

Things are getting better.

I know you have been doing a lot of Googling

Mom,

I embrace your new-found happiness and I am so glad that you and Dad can bond over what you have discovered together. I truly think that it will be an incredible source of joy for you in all of your years and beyond.

Brother Bart Fights Back

Dear Mom,

I’m very happy for you! It makes me smile to see that you are so happy with your new found faith. But when you say things like, “I will not rest until you two turn your lives around” it scares me. If you want to keep pushing your religious beliefs on me, I will push my beliefs back on you. And I know that both of us are obviously set in our ways and it is not going to get us anywhere.

Word Count: 2510

Yes, I know this e-mail is long and you have studying to do….but this is so much more important than anything you are doing right at this moment……just read it and know that every word is coming from my heart.

Dear Reader,

In the quest to make my family perfect my parents are throwing away something beautiful. My brothers and I are great kids and we love our parents very much. We are doing well. We are healthy. It breaks my heart that what I am isn’t good enough.

My mom and dad are coming to visit me for the day tomorrow. I don’t want to give them an ultimatum, but I need to be up front with them. They can have me this way, or not at all.

I watched a movie today: “The Kids Are All Right.” It was incredible. I guess it must have hit home a little hard because I cried for like half the movie. Broken families are all too common.

Don’t Send Me Links… But Here’s A Link

Dear John,

I know you could be sending me tons of stuff that you have found on the Internet……thank you for not doing that.

Please click on this link and read one person’s story. Just one more time….and I won’t send you anything else.

There is one word that I want to leave with you Adam, it is “Ask.” Ask Jesus if this is his plan for you, ask him if there is another way. Ask him into your heart. Ask Him to show you His Glory. Ask him to be with you every minute of every day. Ask him to show you His love.

You don’t have to read this, but maybe this one story will touch your heart like it did mine.

http://michaelglatze.blogspot.com/

I know you aren’t mine….you are God’s and I am giving you over to him.

Pray the Lord’s Prayer every day….Put your name in it.

I love you.

Pronouns Are Law

Dear John,

Let’s not do the argument about what the Bible says about Homosexuality…instead….can you Google what Jesus said about marriage? Would that make it easier? Let’s make this simple.

Your blog is so captivating. I don't always manage to read everything, but everything I do read is just very compelling. It's saddening, maddening, encouraging, and emotional.

I call myself Christian, and I call myself gay. And I've found by reading the Bible, that I can justify both lives without contradicting them. I came out to my mother a few months ago and she was very understanding about it. I'm sorry that your mother doesn't seem to as much, but you are handling this in the best way possible.

The best of luck with this, and may God bless you and your family.

brickswithoutclay

Thanks for the feedback!

Sometimes it can be really hard to keep doing this. I love my family more than anything in the world, but it feels a lot like I’m walking back into a house that’s burning down to save them.