My Dear John, I am going to write to you when I feel like you might listen… The more I study this, the more I pray about it, the more I think about, the more that I know I have to keep talking to you. I woke up this morning thinking about how hurt I was that you would not come to us when you were questioning this, that you would tell your friends before you would tell us. This just means that you were afraid that we would try to talk you out of this or try to get you help. You didn’t want to be talked out of this…you wanted this. You showed us disrespect and did not come to us, you went to everyone else…why? You went to everyone else because you knew that they would think this was cool. They would help you on this path. They would confirm that this was right. This almost hurts more then anything else. You knew this was wrong…..very wrong and yet you are seeking to make it right. Please go back to when you were questioning this and see why you were doing that. God was telling you it was wrong.
I wish I could make you see this as I see it. You have a tendency to get fixated on something and you do it again and again. Why do you think we could never have the TV on when you were our precious little boy and trying to study? You could not pull yourself away. We did it for you by turning off the TV. This is really the same thing. You don’t want to be pulled away, it is pleasure filled for you, it makes you feel good. John, when we do something just for ourselves, it is not of God. Please don’t believe the lies that are confirming this to you. No one in this whole wide world loves you more then we do, no one. No one wants to have you live eternally with God as much as we do. Jesus said it was better to get rid of an offending member of our body (like an eye or a tongue) then to be separated from God eternally. Do you really think your friends love you more then we do? Do they want the best for you? Do they care about your salvation? They may care….but about half as much as we do!!!
Sex screws people up. Bottom line. Sex is a gift from God for a man and a woman to bind them together, but people use it for pleasure and it screws them up. Look at all the hurt in the world that happens because of sex. People leaving their families, people hurting children, sexual diseases….I heard a sermon on TV the other day that talked about how easy it is now to screw yourself up because of the Internet. Boom, touch a button and you can watch, look, participate, buy, fixate, and cheat on your loved ones. Temptation.
You say that the New Testament doesn’t say anything against this….isn’t that the same about lots of things that you know are wrong? How do we know they are wrong? Jesus gave us brains and told us parables because he wanted us to figure things out for ourselves. He didn’t want to spoon feed us. When you are helping students with their math, do you just tell them the answers or do you try to get them to figure it out for themselves? I think Jesus is the same way. He wants us to learn things by working them out and reading the Bible and following him. The Old Testament is very clear about keeping yourself away from this. Read it. Jesus lived the Old Testament…he didn’t come to erase the Old Testament. Don’t take apart the Bible and find things to support your cause. That is what the devil wants you to do. Really really look at it….see how dark this life is. Uncover your eyes. Listen to your heart.
Go back to church, go talk to a minister, read your Bible, and pray and pray and pray, just like we are doing. Get away from this life.
You say that you don’t want us to have hope. If this is true and you don’t want us to try to change you or you don’t want to turn away from this…then I’m not sure where we go from here. Isn’t Jesus all about hope? Love? Faith? If we have no hope, we don’t have anything. You will have destroyed our family….which was put together by God. Yes, I believe that. Our family will never be the same…..we will not rejoice in this….
On the other hand, if you have the tiniest doubt that blooms somewhere in your heart, we will nurture that, we will move mountains, we will sing and dance, we will hold you forever, we will shout it from the roof tops, and we will praise God for saving all of us.
It’s all up to you John. Another thing that Jesus said was, “You should not be of this world.” Homosexuality is definitely of this world, not of Jesus. I believe in miracles and I am praying for one every day.
I believe that the devil works harder on people who make a difference for Jesus. Do you remember Doug Dodson? He had an amazing gift of explaining the Bible to people. He would just talk about one verse and suddenly it was clear to me what it was supposed to mean. He had 500 people going to a new church in our city that he started and he had a wonderful family with six beautiful children. He turned his back on all of this…and walked into homosexuality and is now selling insurance in Arizona. The church fell apart and the people ( most of whom had never gone to church before) left and were disillusioned. His family was devastated. Those children will never be the same.
Talk about the devil working hard on someone who was making a difference for God! I think I heard once that the worst thing you can do is to take away someone’s faith. Lots of people lost their faith. Is this of God?
I think that you have a heart for God. You have a light in you that could make a difference to people. The devil wants you to work for him. You can say that I’m corny and stupid but I believe in the darkness and in evil. It is all around us and we can’t give in. This is of the devil. He wants you. The thing about loving Jesus is that you have to choose him. He loves us but he doesn’t force us. We can’t force you either. If you want turn toward a life of a homosexual, you are turning away from us and from Jesus. You get to choose your own path. Picture yourself on that Angel cliff in Utah…if you choose the wrong way, you will go over the edge and will be lost. We are waiting on the other side with open arms (ok, I would really climb that for you and do this even if it scared me to death!). Please read about the statistics for the life of the homosexual. Very very scary. I won’t try to give them to you because you will just argue with me about them. Think about why sex works, it doesn’t work the way you think it will. It is not clean.
There is a whole article that I found that was really good about homosexuality and the Bible. I didn’t copy the whole thing…just the last couple of paragraphs. Please read it…..
We love you more then you will ever know. We love you. We want your heart to melt and we want you to quit pushing us away. Please open your heart. Please release this from you. Please turn away from this. Please be stronger then you have ever been in your life.
We love you!! We are here for you!! We will help you with everything we have and everything we own.
For some reason…I thought that this might make a difference to you….just these couple of paragraphs. My Grandma used to tell me that this is how God works….you know in your heart that something is wrong or right…..listen to it your heart. Keep it open to the possibility of life and death with him!!!
Just a few paragraphs:
I know that some homosexuals are arrogant and try to justify their sin. Others hate their sin and wish to stop but can’t. We all make choices, and a choice is what we prefer. One may hate the fact that he is a smoker, yet, he “prefers” the feeling he gets from smoking over the feeling he doesn’t get when he runs out of cigarettes or tries to quit. To quit you must have a stronger reason fornot doing something than you have for doing something. It’s all about motivation.
Sometimes just knowing that something is a sin is reason to quit. That is why I quit smoking. I knew it was not good for my health, it was dirty, it was annoying to others, and it was costly, etc. But I did not quit until I became convinced that is was sinning against God. I enjoyed smoking a LOT when I quit. But sometimes it takes a doctor telling you that you will die if you don’t quit a particular life style. But the bottomline is, you won’t stop committing the sin unless and until God Almighty has determined that you will quit. And that is equally true for atheists, although they don’t know or won’t acknowledge that as yet.
Heterosexual men are just as weak when it comes to lusting after women, as homosexuals are when it comes to lusting after members of the same gender. The ONLY way that I know of to break these sins and have victory over them is for God to empower you with a greater motivation to live righteously than to live un-righteously. If what you desire to be is “good,” then there is only One Source:
”And also that every man should eat and drink, and enjoy the good of all his labor, It is the gift of God” (Ecc. 3:13). ”EVERY good gift and EVERY perfect gift is from above, and cometh down from the Father of lights, with whom is no variableness, neither shadow of turning” (James 1:17).
We will continue to pray for all those who desire to come out of the bondage and slavery of “…the sin which does so easily beset us….” (Heb. 12:1).